HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

I somehow survived my birthday, I'll leave out all the details, because I'll post the pictures up later of me with all my friends and GoGo Boys and the club, and me walking home 4am..DRUNK! And by myself! I couldn't remember how I had gotten home, and was sick the next day, until I looked on my camera and found some interesting pictures of NYC, only I didn't know who took them. Apparently I decided to walk home after I told everyone that it was cool, and took pictures to document my journey home, a Xmas tree and a statue and my shoes! I was sick all day on Thursday and didn't leave the house until this afternoon when I went to go see Transamerica. This movie was amazing and Felicity Huffman was stupendous and deserves all the awards that are coming to her! I urge everyone to go catch this film.
I'm off to a New Year's Eve party at #3's and Dad's place and can't wait to have a chill and intimate night with all my friends, I'll be drinking ginger ale, of course. I've been a bad blogger and need to sit down and just write about the this past year and all of the things that I hope to accomplish in the incoming year. I'll see you guys next year, be good and play safe!!! DF!!

P.S.
One of the funniest things I've heard in a long time came from my friend Sammy after I left him a message on my birthday, he saved and wants to try and put on the airwaves, it's hysterical! It goes like this. This is on his message with a very drunk and slurring Divafina..
" Sammy!! (thumping music in the background, inaudible people yelling)It's my BIRTHDAY!!(small pause) It's Madonna!! (long pause with music pounding, 'Times goes by, so slowly....') WHOOOO!!(click)" And that was a two minute long message

Golden Birthday!

Today is my Golden Birthday!! I turned 28 on the 28th of December, I am truly old now. I've had a tough holiday season folks and I couldn't write anything down because I didn't want to jinx anything and make it worse, I'll write the whole story down when I know that everything is going to be okay.
So let's make this post quick because I got to start getting ready for a night out on the town with my friends! First we're going to dinner at this great Mexican fusion place in the West Village named Agave, where we hear the margaritas are to die for! Then we are off to sleazy club where the GoGo boys wear next to nothing and we can dance our asses off!! I've invited people that are in town and even my Photographer and he said that he would make it tonight, so I can't wait to see what happens tonight. It's going to be a fabulous mess.
I'll also write my thought on being one year older and getting that much closer to 30.
I gotta go, I have to manscape!!
Love you, wish me luck..df

P.S.
Thanks to everyone who has sent me birthday greetings, it means a lot!

Merry Xmas!!

I'm taking some time to relax, I've gotten two weeks off work for a break and I'm resting!!
After all the drama here in NYC with the strike and the cold weather, I've gone and caught a cold, a very nice Christmas present indeed. Been shopping like crazy trying to make this a great holiday for me and mine, and here's to you guys out there! Merry Christmas!!
All my people on the West Coast! All my people in the Midwest!! All my people here on the East Coast!
All of my peeps who are abroad and on tour and God knows where!! I love you guys and am truly blessed to have you in my life, thank you.
I'll post some fun pictures when I feel better. Having a dinner party with my clan tomorrow and then off to a movie. Feliz Navidad!! -df.

Use your powers..

I haven't had a chance to write about anything in a while, so I'm going to qucikly give you a tid bit before I take off and run some errands. We had a Xmas party this past Wednesday, it was pretentious and I don't want to get into how rude the staff were at this place. It was fun, we had invited models and clients alike, and I, at the last minute, got this stroke of genius! I rattled off an email to my cute Photographer to come and he did!! I was so surprised that he showed up and I wasn't prepared to try and be cute or charming, so I just stood there and let him do most of the talking. He looked HOT! All of my friends approved and I just couldn't get into the whole flirty thing.
"Girl, bring out those old, man catching powers you've got tucked away! He's a catch, and he's all yours!" My roommate screamed into my ear.
"I don't think that I have those powers anymore, I gave them up." I yelled back while my gentleman went and got me a drink.
"Is he gay? I can't tell, did he tell you?" That was the million dollar question of the night, because I didn't know if he was gay or not. He had showed up and that threw me for a loop, but he was fucking up my gaydar.
"I think he is, but then he pulls back and acts straight." I whispered.
" Girl, I don't think he is, I see you having a man for your birthday!"
" Shut up! Don't jinx it! Here he comes act natural, and YOU find out if he's gay or not!" And with that I turned around and give him a quick thank you for my drink and started bopping to the music. I was trying to work this whole aloof thing, that I kinda remember working for me, but then I think that it was hit or miss back then so I just stood and looked cute. We got to talk and laugh and stare at each other for a while longer, he wanted a cigarette, I went and stole him one and lit one for me. He made me smile from ear to ear and #3 said that this was the one that he was talking about.
"Miss Honey, he was ordered just for you......" #3 said, and I knew he was.
Another crazy thing that he mentioned was that I was the first person he ever spoke to on the phone that when he finally met them, I looked EXACTLY like he had imagined. I didn't know how to take that, but he promised that it was all good. So did he imagine a cute latin boy with glasses, or chubby queen who spoke really fast? I don't know, but I'll settle for the first thought!
Around midnight he and his friends decided to take off and I was glad becuase I was TIRED! We had this awkward hug kiss on the cheek thing, where we smiled into each others eyes and made promises that we would hang out somewhere quiet, he also said that he would attend my birthday party. So, who knows, last night #3 and I picked out baby names, just in case....df

Back from Chi-

So I'm back from Chicago, it was a good trip. The rooms were all should out when I get there, got bumped up to a HUGE suite, no bed, but great view and they gave $50 for food and beverages purchases to make up for the fact that I was now high rolling. I haven't slept and I'm exhausted! My room was on the 27th floor and had a great view of the river, it was snowing when I took this picture. It always amazes me when I feel like a hotel room is home, the smell and the front desk make me feel all warm and fuzzy. An elevator doesn't hurt either. Night...df

Brokeback Mountain..

I'm at the airport right now, waiting for my flight since I got here two hours early. I'm going to Chicago for a modeling convention that I just found out I was going to a couple of days ago.
So last night we went to catch the opening night of Brokeback Mountain, there were a bunch of gays in my group and one REAL lady. I've been waiting for this movie for over a year now and I can't begin to tell you how moved I was by the short story, hence the reason why we bought our tickets a week in advance. I had never seen so many different types of gay men at a mainstream movie theatre before, or sure, there are tons when you go the "gay" indie flick that flashes a male frontal, but a theatre where next door they're playing Harry Potter? We got there an hour early and were first in line, I had butterflies in my stomach, and couldn't be happier to share this movie with my clan, minus a few brown children. Okay, I don't want to ruin the movie or give it fagged out review of it, I just want to try and touch upon the impact it had on me, even at 8am, Roommate and I woke up talking about it.
This was one of the quietest films that I've ever been at, more so than The Ring, cuz everyone there was too afraid to do much else than breathe.
Ang Lee, the director, mutes us with the beauty of the Wyoming landscape and makes us appreciate God and all his wonders. He makes you feel and understand how small man is when it comes to nature. Jake Gylenhaal and Heath Ledger play the main characters, Ennis Del Mar and Jack Twist, respectively. Jake plays Jack with big eyes and desperate quality, like he's always searching and scavanging for human contact or emotion, he did a fine job. It was his best acting performance to date. Heath Ledger blew me away in this part, I can't even being to describe how amazing he was, I didn't see Heath Leadger up there, I saw Ennis and for that I was in awe of his acting skills. He doesn't have many lines, but when he does speak it's for a reason and you better listen. Ang took us through a rollercoaster of emotions and somehow made a 50 page short story into a 2 hour masterpiece. I can't figure out how I want to finish this review, but I do have to board a plane, I will leave you with this. It was a love story, and it makes you think about your past, present and future. Even though their love was painful, it was also a very powerful thing that I hope to one day have, except with all the pain and loss.
I'm off to Chicago peeps...
Brokeback music
df

No clue!

Somewhere my little brother who I haven't spoken to in four years is turning 25. I hope that he's doing better and taking some responsibility for his life and his choices. He doesn't know it, but I pray for him every night. Happy Bday bro. Wherever you are! DF.

Auf Wiederschen......BITCH!

Last night I went to the premiere (say that with a fake British accent, ala Harry Potter, Premiere) of one of my favorite reality shows, Project Runway. This is one of the perks, I guess, of working in fashion. I was SO excited for this party, not only was the show finally starting, but one of my Roommates close friends is one of the designers chosen to be on the show, Dan Vosovic. He's super cool and adorable, so now we know where the hell he ended up over the summer when no one could get in touch with him! Also, one of the models that we represent Danyelle is strutting her shit on the catwalk, so I HAD to be there! I had invited my Roommate to come along and was on the guest list, so I was feeling very VIP. That was until I got there and they told me that I wasn't on the list.
" I'm sorry I don't see you're name on the list, can you step aside please." The bitchy intern with a fucking clipboard told me and my roommate.
"Oh, okay. I'm supposed to be on the list." I quietly said, with enough hate in my eyes to melt the snow around her. I was not going to give up, but I had to not make a scene. My roommate thought that I was giving up, but I was thinking, so I called Kuddles and she let me have it!
"Gurl! Why you standing there in cold when you should be inside having a cocktail with some HOT man! You tell that bitches' supervisor what agency you're with and who you work for and march right in! Do I have come down there?!" I guess I shouldn't have interrupted his date, but he gave me the much needed boost to get my fires blazing.
"Excuse me, I work for _____ and my boss RSVP's for us to be here, I have an invitation and I was just turned away at the door." I very efficiently told the hooker with the headgear walkie-talkie.
"We sent out a lot of those invitations, they mean NOTHING unless you RSVP." She looked right at me with her empty, just try it queen and I'll let you have it stare. So I gathered my full height and I told her what I should have said from the beginning.
" I'm from___, and I've got some models in there." And I pointed into the tacky club where the tacky party was being held.
" Where are you models?" She asked, looking behind me.
" There ON the show! I'm here for THEM!" I said with my inner diva voice that was amplified by my magical fur hat that made me look like a Russian Mafia boss's wife!
"Oh, okay then..." And then the rope was unhooked and I was let in front of everyone standing in the cold.
So I made it in, they had and open bar and some food. But I was not impressed, I thought that it would be different. It was crowded and loud, people were smoking and you couldn't hear anything. The cool thing was we got to see most of the show without commercials, so we decided to bounce and catch the second half of the show at home where we could hear everything.
I'm was happy that I got to meet some of the contestants and get free stuff. And Heidi Klum is not playing this year, she sent home THREE people in the first show.
On another note, I'm happy that PR is back on because two of my favorite shows just ended, America's Next Top Model AND Making the Band. This is gonna be a long December indeed!
Goodnight..df
p.s.
miss you Jaq!

My fiancee..

This is my homegirl Jaque from work. She's a scout and fierce, we share a desk together and I love her. She was having a I hate boys day, so I took her ring and put it on her left hand and proposed a sexless, kissless, marriage. We are both going to have other boyfriends, but be married together, besides, our initials are the same. Here she is kids, are you ready? df

Go-Go Man...

Liquor before beer your in the clear. Beer before liquor, never been sicker! Or is it wine before beer you feel queer? Or beer before wine, feel fine? Or is it righty tighty, lefty loosey? I can never remember the saying, all I know is that last night turned out to be one of my famous drank waaaay to much nights that I can honestly say it didn't have me making an ass out of myself like I normally do! This time it was Dad's turn, someone should have warned the non-drinker to not try and match me drink to drink, you'll lose almost every time. #3 is in California, so Dad and I were going to go out for a minute and have a drink and catch up. Before he even got to my place I had finished a bottle of cheap white wine, so I was good and toasty when we set off for the Boy's Room, an east village gay bar that I love! I like to get there early so I can miss the long coat check line, but mainly it's for the open bar that they have before midnight. We started drinking and having a good ol' time, saw my favorite Go-Go boy and the rest of the heathens that run the Saturday night party. Tam showed up around midnight and I had his favorite drink waiting for him so he could start right away. It started to pick up around 1am and by that point the three of us were drunk, and waiting for the Go-Go Boy contest they have on Saturday to begin. Every Saturday guys can sign up and compete for $300 in the contest, they have get on stage and take of their clothes and make the crowd happy. The audience chooses who goes onto second part of the contest where it can get pretty raunchy and debaucherous. So usually it's hot, cute, young guys that need the money for rent do the contest, so it came as a shock to Tam and I when Dad was called up onto stage(using an alias of course) to strip down and shake his groove thing! I was mortified! All I could do was watch as he was up there dancing and showing what his momma gave him, LORD! #3 is gonna KILL me is what kept running through my head. We ended up cheering along with everyone and making sure that his pants and shirt were safe. Dad did great, I mean, he was drunk and had liquid courage and is a MAN, not a boy anymore. He was a G0-Go Man and didn't need the money, so I have no idea what made him want to get on stage. There were only three contestants and he made into the second round onto the bar, he made some tips and then I can't remember who won. It's kind of blur, after that was over we hung around and drank some more and kept loosing each other. I had to fight to keep this busted guy from taking advantage of my best friend's husband, cuz I'm a Latina and that's what we do. We were all a hot mess, finally got things settled with taking him home and as we were leaving I saw the winner of Project Runway, Jay, and I walked up and told him how much I loved him, and then Dad throw up at his feet and we had to leave. We couldn't find a cab to take us uptown, so we walked home, in the snow mind you. New York decided that the first snow was to fall last night, and it did, a lot! We stumbled home with Dad, practically carrying him and trying to reassure #3 that his soulmate was safe. Dragged him up six flights of stairs and then put him to bed. We woke up Roommate and his boyfriend, staggered out and went to eat with Tam at diner 24. I always have to eat before I go to bed when I'm that drunk and eat we did. Came home and got some big bottles of water and Gatorade for us and crawled into bed with Dad. He woke up at 10am like nothing happened and didn't have a hangover and went home. Meanwhile, I'm laid up in bed, nursing my hangover and watching the LOGO channel. I gotta say, my Saturday nights are getting crazier every week, I don't think that I handle much more of this, #3 better hurry up and get here! I can't wait for Tam to call me so I can get his take on last night. I feel old....I am old... df!

I do believe in MySpace, I do..I do!!

I've went and done it!! I've joined the dark side. I've joined MySpace, and I'm hooked. I've fought it forever and now I can't turn off the computer and go to bed. Myspace at this link, you can look at my profile. In the one hour that I had joined I was able to connect with four people that I haven't spoken with in years!! It's awesome, I love it!! If you can't get a hold of me you know here I'm at..love you...df